Two made up words somehow describe exactly how I have been feeling. The worry and stress about the return to work in a few weeks along with struggling to feel joy, make me stressy and depressy.
Sometimes you need to be alone , not to be lonely but to enjoy yourself. Storms don’t last forever. Don’t overthink life. Trust that you made the right decision and continue to grow. Just recently I had to cancel and pass on a social commitment that I was expected to go to. I stressed and worried on how to find the words to tell the other person that I just could not make it. In the end, it was a lame text saying that I was not in a place where I could be around people and that I was so sorry for having to do that. Then it got me thinking….we don’t ever say sorry for when we are happy and excited, so why is there a need to apologize for all the other feelings and emotions that we have? Those were legit feelings that I was having, I knew from learning from past experiences that it was simply too much to ask of myself and so I made a decision. In the end I made the right decision and I should have trusted myself from the start and used it as an opportunity to grow. Yes I may overthink, everything, but I also over-love. The only person I don’t over-love is myself. I’m a work in progress I guess. And now it’s time to go work on some progress and go for a run. Just me, enjoying being alone, but most definitely not lonely.
Run Happy my friends. xo